I mean, I haven't really updated for a long time, so when i look back on this stuff, it really hits me how different everything is. i have far less free time and creativity, but i feel like my art work has really gotten better and i've grown a lot as a person. now that i think about it, so much of last year was wasted chasing after some boy and writing stupid love poems and being depressed. i can't believe i just threw all of that time away, what i wouldn't give for just a week like that this year. everything is moving too fast now, i'm not sure where i'm going or what i'm doing in terms of the future, but i'm being shoved forward anyway.